:) Good cheer.

so I didnt make American Idol.
but who gives a fuck we all know I have a voice..
but anyways!
i will within the next couple weeks, be writting
for my EP that we be dropped within the end of october/mid november.
Havent decided yet, and its a process that cannot be rushed!
But I am excited to get started on my very own project.
Promotion and networking will be a challenge because i'm lazy
but i got fans. Everyone has fans!
I can do this :)
I will keep yall updated!!

passion

I am approaching one of the biggest opportunities of my life tomorrow, and the day after. My stomach is in knots..
I feel like i've been chasing this dream of doing what I truly love and getting nowhere. Although, I look ungrateful when I say that because what I feel and what I know are 2 different things.
I have got somewhere, just not as far as I want to.
My standards for myself when it comes to music are so high I can almost never reach them without letting myself down.
Its a constant game of tug-o-war.
American Idol..my thoughts on the show have always been the same..
I didnt know if I wanted to go out that way...or be so public with purusing my dream..with millions of people watching..watching my own downfall is hard enough,
but to get "voted" off and having THAT many people see it? thats hard.
but, it's worth it..its something I have to live with if this is what i'm going to pursue.
Being in the public eye is what music is about a lot of the time...
I have to make sure I continue doing this for me no matter how far I get,
and keep the most positive attitude about it no matter how frustrated or confused I
may get during it.I hope I make it through..
I've never wanted anything so bad.



Here I Come! American Idol

remotez

if it feels right, then you will know
your where abouts wont even matter anymore
you could be at the edge of the world
any one thing will feel the best its felt.

its like when you can successfully untangle
the knots of a pair of shoes that have
been sitting in the closet for so long
because you never felt the shoes worthy of being un-tied.
or, you never un-tied them, and hoped the knots
would undo themselves and loosen up each
time you slipped the shoes on.

the windows can be down while its raining
and the rain would feel like silk
the feelings, unfathomable and unreachable, reached.
but in a short matter of time.

no one can tell you you're wrong
and when they tell you you're right,
you're use to it, so it goes in one ear
and then out the other.

you can lay it all out flat
and then it just is, what it is.

hahah

how soon is too soon
when its a feeling you're almost positive is real
i feel it in my heart and i see it with my eyes
i dont want to scare you
but to me, this is a big deal
i don't say things I dont mean.
and to me this feeling is insane
but i'm falling in........

LIFE STOCK MUSIC FESTIVAL!

"Lets Take a Second and reflect on what we can do
To be smart and play apart in somethin beautiful
Embrace life appreciate the fact you even breathing
Cuz we in the crosshairs and it's open season
If each one teaches one we got a good start
Your not a square cuz you care and have a good heart
We gotta speak soft, And listen harder
Its right in front of our face but we don't even bother

Think about it
Be about, dont be afraid to speak about it
Don't cry about it even though they lie about it
set a fire, inspire dont turn it up to cheek about it

Can't change the world over night
But we can start by saving a life
One at a time, One at a time
So lets make history and help out those in need
One at a time, One at a time
We can change a life

I be like my generations complaining about things that we don't have
But if you think about it we ain't got it so bad
Trust me I know bad, And I met worst
And it'd be so sad, To sit it and let it get worst
It's a simple concept we need to grasp quickly
Before we end up wishing we did something differently
So go and spread the word, And not the virus
C'mon lets get together try and put this all behind us"
-Travis McCoy.

:)

you think im pretty without any makeup on
you think i'm funny when I tell the punch-line wrong
I know you get me so i let my walls come down

man...oh man.

I miss my family so much, I never thought distance would make me feel so alone.
I thought getting out on my own would be a fun experience, and most of the time it is.
I've learned so much about myself and realized I can't be alone for too long.
I'm use to having someone around all the time no matter what. and its nice to be alone, but come night it's so hard for me if I have to be by myself. Its difficult but I am learning so much. I want to make it in life and I wanna be happy just as much as the next guy. I want my family though, because one day some of the people in my family wont be there and it'll hurt knowing I tried so hard getting away from them.
I miss my mom.

I miss my grandmother and grandfather.

I miss my little brother.

I miss my aunts and my uncles. and my cousins.

I hate to be so close yet so far away
from the ones that love me most.