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sometimes I say things,

that I don't mean

no, I don't mean

It's not to be pretentious, 

but something just crawls in,

and inhabits me

your feelings are important here

i'm just stating my opinion crystal clear

I see things so differently

that if i try too hard i'll lose

what I wanna be

creating circles in my eyes

steering clear from being hypnotized

the waters overflowing

and my joy just isn't showing

but i'm smiling,

yeah, i'm smiling

even though it seems i hate your words

hands under the table

passing notes because we can

I lied to tell a secret just so,

I could grab your hand

so run with my idea,

and dont you dare look back

i've been meaning to wish you well

but you were never having that

yeah, you were never having that.